By the second day it's beginning to look like we're far enough
south to miss the eye of Dean, if not some torrential rains and high
winds. With luck we will not get enough rain to blow out the four-mile
dirt road to the main highway (3-foot deep stretches forty feet across
are not uncommon this time of year), and high winds will not strip our
mango, lime, plantain, soursop and breadfruit trees — important staples
— of their not yet ripe fruits.
At the same time we may get nothing more than a severe rain storm,
severe here being in a whole other league than in the United States.
Picture 8 inches in an hour. Such is middle-class life in the hundreds
of Caribbean villages you never see on American TV, even when they are
wiped off the map by hurricanes, places with names like Seine Bight and
Monkey River Town. Places that provide the groundskeepers and table
wipers for the destination resorts such as Caye Chapel island golf
course ($200 and up to tee off) where the likes of Bill Gates fly in to
enjoy 'round the clock concierge, what has got to be the most
challenging windage factor in all of golfdom, and disciplined black or
Hispanic attendants to their every whim, in a country where the minimum
wage is USD $1.50 for those lucky enough to find employment that
actually pays it. All this happens without so much as a whisper of the
subject of class on anyone's part, black or white.
The poor cannot afford open indignation, much less class justice.
Granted, I tend to see class issues behind every curtain because of the
powerless redneck class that shaped me from birth. Anyway, the leopard
does not change its spots, so I still smoke, cuss, put too much salt on
everything and have enough class anger to burn down every gated
community and refurbished Manhattan brownstone and university in the
country (sparing maybe Evergreen up there in the Northwest).
But that is because I can afford financially to be angry. Even though I
voluntarily live on $4,000 a year, an economic penitent if you will, I
am nevertheless among the 6 percent world's rich and white human beings
called Americans. Last week my neighbor, a middle aged barrel-chested
man working as a resort security guard, sat on my porch and told of his
dream of a national union for resort workers. We both looked down from
the porch at his wife and daughter and his yet unpaid for house.
Nobody had to say aloud that the risk was just too great, or that the
resort owners, U.S. speculators and the foreign shadow governments such
as the U.S., (and increasingly, the Taiwanese buying up Belizean
property and investing toward a soft landing when they are finally
booted from their island stronghold) will never let that happen. Class
struggle does not happen in Belize for the same reasons it does not
happen in the U.S.: Fear. The global issue of class is however starting
to be dealt with, and not-so-small fires of liberation are breaking out
all over in Venezuela, Bolivia, Oaxaca, the Philippines, Indonesia ...
and other "terrorist states unimpressed by Kevlar-clad GI Joes or the
latest or the antics of Paris Hilton. Class will one day be dealt with
in America too.
In fact, it's starting to be discussed by people other than internet
socialists and old greybeard Jewish lefties in musty apartments in
Paterson, New Jersey. Even the GOP is scouring the bushes for someone
among them who can make populist noises into a microphone. And at this
point, for reasons too numerous to go into here, they have a better
chance of coming up with such a person than the Democrats. Populism is
the newest term being used by both parties and the media to avoid the
nasty C word, another brilliant cooption of liberal language for
conservative purposes. It's hard to argue with the fact that we are all
people (except for Muslim Americans, of course).
The term carries echoes "of the people, for the people and by the
people." You don't revolt against the ghost of Abe Lincoln. Yet, were
there to be a class revolution in the U.S. next week, and the old folks
looted the drug stores (I'd be right there with 'em, though probably
not for the same drugs) and even if that pack of Gucci whores at the
Fed said: "Fuck it, let's spread all the geet we've looted equally
among every American," we still will not have begun to touch the core
of our national disease, our uniquely American supersized version of a
universal one — individual greed. The national mindset of "I want all I
can grab for myself and I want it now, even if it has to be on credit,"
constitutes a much bigger crisis than class in and of itself, and is
the driver of our unfolding national catastrophe.
Garden variety personal greed may be a human constant in history — and
we certainly have our share of it here in Hopkins — but it has been
dangerous only on the part of the rich and powerful. After all, when
was the last time selling someone a lame camel, a rotten mango or a
quarter ounce of ditch weed oppressed millions? But few civilizations
have ever upheld greed as the highest common virtue and civic
responsibility as the American culture has. We do this under such false
labels as self-advancement, opportunity, success, national economic
good, or entitlement, but mostly because "I fucking want one of those!"
The wanting is not the problem. The problem is that we get what we
want. Or more correctly, we get what we are told to want, and are told
to want more of everything from Louis Vuitton purses to Gameboys,
depending upon our class, while the families such as the two piled into
this household tonight are told to expect nothing.
Is American economic culture inherently cruel and oblivious? Well, yes.
Are Americans themselves moreover cruel or oblivious? This time last
year I would have said that, granting the obvious exceptions to any
generalization, yes. I have come to understand that, although we may
well be conditioned to obliviousness by our market culture (our culture
IS the market), and more recently, kept in a state of fear by a
corporately backed criminal leadership, we are by no means especially
cruel. In our socially alienated market society, in which we don't need
each other so much as we need money to insulate ourselves from each
other (what the fuck, poverty and bad taste might be contagious!), we
are simply denied any real opportunity for face-to-face, on-the-ground
compassion and service to our fellow man. Instead, our altruism is
channeled through BIG BROTHER CHARITY INC, the United Way, the Red
Cross, the Sierra Club, or any of the American Christian Syndicate's
save the children rackets. What changed my mind? Living (as much as
possible at least) in Hopkins. But before I again inadvertently unleash
a flood of email enquiries regarding the Belizean coast as an expat
paradise, let me say this: As I write this, I am watching the influx of
fairly rich American assholes escaping the coming economic disaster up
there in Gringolia. They are building their sterile fortified
communities on either end of the village, stealing and bulldozing many
Garifuna-owned acres, including the village's heritage-laden graveyard
(illegal as hell, outright brazen theft, but as Old Charlie the
Garifuna fisherman told me last night over a beer, "The man has not yet
been born in this village who can lead us against this thing that is
happening." We've got the same problem, Charlie.
But for every U.S. bloodsucker I've encountered here, I have also met
an American, usually a young backpacker — but sometimes a retired
couple having what they know will be their last ruggedly romantic
adventure together — give their last damned dollar to a villager in
need. Sometimes they keep back only enough for bus fair for the 35-mile
ride into Dangriga to punch the ATM for cash on their Visa cards,
knowing it is going to hurt like hell when they get home to pay the tab
on a fixed income. They are never the rich, who don't come into the
village, anyway, except to hire a house slave or two.
In my experience the generous and compassionate older Americans are
nearly always working class or old hippies. The last American I saw do
it was a retired machinist. And sometime in the next few months a
Nashville librarian and her husband are coming down to explore the
possibility of building a children's library with their own meager
savings. When I meet such Americans, I get choked up inside and am
released from some part of my cynicism about my country. Little do they
know that when they give to others, including jaded old American
writers who, as inveterate observers of life, are too often lost in the
horrors they have witnessed — even helped create — and have been too
unaware of the compassion that often flowers before them.
Helen and Bob and the suicidal Hindu
The Great and Glorious World Money Machine! The Enlightenment's gilded
engine of commerce, sprung gloriously and fully formed from the womb of
ration! It may have delighted the hell out of Alexander Hamilton and
Adam Smith but has created a thousand hells for non-European peoples
and still creates new ones daily. Even when the system functions
peacefully, assuming it ever has, and to our maximum prosperity, the
gauge of which now seems to be obesity (someday there will be a
Sumo-style weigh-in to qualify for U.S. citizenship) we are made
willing fools, not to mention unconscious instruments of orchestrated
global cruelty. One small example: We find ourselves turned into
walking signage for the system itself, wearing Nike or Old Navy or Izod
shirts made from Indian cotton produced by small farmers forced to use
expensive Monsanto pesticides and seed bought on credit (many of whom
committed suicide when this mounting debt cost them their traditional
family plots of land. If you missed that on CNN, it's because it was
never there and never will be). We do not know those Indians' names or
the faces of their children. Then again, they do not know ours, which
matters not to us because there are umpteen millions of the wretched
fuckers over there where life is cheap. We, on the other hand live in
the land of the rich and the free, and we've got the Indian cotton
T-shirt to prove it. Pass the Doritos. And when the T-shirt is tossed a
couple months later, it ends up in one of those rag bales shipped to
the Third World. Thus the world traveler is treated to the bizarre
sight of a malnourished fellow human lying on the sidewalk in Mexico
City's Zocalo — most likely an Indian or mestizo — wearing a "What
Happens in Vegas Remains in Vegas" T-shirt. The small grimy hand lifts
in supplication for a few pesos. Helen and Bob, vacationing on their
credit cards, look away, partly because we've been taught not to stare
at the poor (conveniently not noticing inequity) and partly because
Americans are at least still capable of inner embarrassment at the
inequity they are conditioned to avoid. In the end, though, both the
beholder and the beheld have been standardized and depersonalized by
the division of labor and mass scale inherent in America's free market
capitalism, which Chomsky says, "... historically, we've never honestly
practiced even once."
He mi iduhei!
Meanwhile, there's that approaching hurricane. Among the Rubios staying
with us until Dean passes is their 12-year-old adopted child, Julian.
Through my high kitchen window I can see him joyfully helping his mom
remove billowing bedsheets from the clothes line. And when he is not
doing that, he is running to help his dad with every task. His adoptive
father, Labon, is a stern one, hard as nails by American standards,
quick to laugher and affection with his family. But what drives
Julian's eager cooperation is his deep admiration for his adopted
father, as his model for a strong manhood. Boys think about becoming
men here, the same as everywhere else, I suppose, but much more so.
I've spent time with the Rubios on a solitary atoll out in the reefs
and watching the interplay of Julian and his adopted parents. Normal as
it is to them, it remains one of the most beautiful human family
experiences I've ever witnessed.
Nor is it particularly unique. His cousin in our household, Kirky, does
the same. To Kirky, his smiling, hard-laboring father, Luke, who
admonishes me for buying the kids such things as soccer balls, "Spoil
the pickney, spoil de man" (pickney is not a derogatory term here among
the Garifuna, who were never enslaved), represents for Luke, as Labon
does for Julian, all the dignity any man can ever hope to possess.
Being allowed to sit among his father and other grown men late into the
evenings is an achievement, proof of one more small step toward
manhood. During the day when Kirky is not riding herd on the toddlers
for his mom, Marzlyn, he voluntarily rakes the sandy yard clean, flat
and white because it needs to be done every day, and because it will
save his dad an hour of doing the same when he returns home from his
job at the resort. And because it is what a grown man does — works,
serves and honors family blood. Blood is thick here. When Julian showed
up with his family to wait out Hurricane Dean, both boys were movingly
overjoyed to see each other because, "He mi iduhei!" (cousin). And from
what I can hear through the floorboards of my cabana as they linger in
the shade below, they share the secrets of young boy's souls. Then go
running off to shoot marbles in the wet hot sand. Neither has ever
played an electronic game or has any notion of what a gameboy or an
Xbox might be (though I'm sure there must be a few here among those
villagers who've returned from working in the States).
Tradition, community and clan, though rapidly declining, is the
animating force of what's left of the old Garifuna culture that still
exist along this coast, mostly in the villages. It's stubborn stuff.
Right now I can hear the drumming of a Dugu (the traditional
ancestor-based African religion of the Garifuna) coming from the long
grass temple on the beach, not because there is a 'cane approaching,
but despite that, there is one coming. Luke says they already had a
ceremony planned and a little thing like a hurricane threat would never
stop them. "The old ones, dey are stubborn!" he laughs. Stubborn or
not, all of us feel how the drumming animates this night with the
traditional Garifuna spirit. Cultural and spiritual cohesion is a bit
easier for the Belizean Garifuna, given there are only a few thousand
of them strung along the coastline. Since most families here never get
split up or scattered, their human energies remain collective (if for
no other reason than sheer necessity) in a manner utterly impossible
amid the astounding diversity of the American people. Our only tangible
national commonality, regardless of bullshit and rhetoric, is basically
the currency and its transaction and accumulation. Consequently,
American culture's animating force has always been the financial
transaction.
Even Tocqueville noted that Americans seemed driven to buy and sell
everything they touched, apparently for the sheer hell of it. Two
centuries later we find all collective human energies being directed
toward purchasing and working to purchase cell phones, beanie weenies,
spec houses, Dale Earnhardt crock pots and Korean-made electric ass
scratchers, plus storage lockers to cram all this needless stuff into.
Even Christianity gets into the act with hundreds of "Christian
mortgage companies" and, honest to god, a "faith-based quick lube" auto
service in my hometown of Winchester, Va., which doubters may Google in
the Winchester Star newspaper. All of which is not exactly a recipe for
producing a nation of high-minded intellectuals and altruists. What it
has produced is this: 3 billion pounds of money-blinded human meat —
400 million pounds of which is lard — straining under the common
corpo-military-financial yoke in order to pay for and consume 30 times
what it takes to meet its basic needs. We've so far exceeded basic need
that obese 18-year-old kids are dying of heart attacks. And all this at
ever-escalating high cost too. Even leisure, relaxing and doing
nothing, is among the most expensive damned things in the country. When
it comes to leisure, our benevolent system provides two whole weeks a
year (count 'em, folks!) but only to those with job security and the
"discretionary income," left on the plastic to cough up for synthetic
experiences (hallucinations, really) at "leisure destinations," such as
the expensive gringo resort just outside this village. Last night an
old expat owner of a modest beachside inn here told me of a tourist
guest who had changed clothes in the car on the way down, then stepped
out of it in a leopard bikini, spike heels and dark glasses. It's no
mystery why she equated rustic little Hopkins Village with Cannes. In
the travel industry's hallucination generating department, anyplace
with sand and sun is Cannes, or at least Maui.
If we only had a brain
With the thoughts you'd be thinkin'
You could be another Lincoln
If you only had a brain!
— Dorothy, Wizard of Oz
The truth, however, is that, regardless of income, most Americans work
too much and have too little time to experience true leisure, let alone
time to develop a genuine intellectual and inner life. And that is the
underlying horror of the consumer state and the source of that haunting
sense of meaningless amid all the white noise and bright lights and
toys. No functional sustaining interior life. No private mind-soul
garden to cultivate, no psychospiritual inner home. No stable center of
being. That sounds arrogant as hell, but I'm saying it anyway. If we
had such a thing as a cohesive national moral and intellectual life, we
surely wouldn't be the society of engorgement, not to mention the
international thugs that we now are. Or at least not as much so.
But very few Americans, not even university professors, book editors,
authors, theologians, all sorts of people one would expect to have a
thriving intellectual life, have one. Zilch. Sure, some study
rigorously, and possibly as many as a quarter of Americans buy, read
and discuss "important books" and go see "important movies," (which I
don't believe exist, but that's another matter). However buying and
reading the best books does not necessarily, or even usually, have much
to do with an interior intellectual life, the real kind that comes from
spending countless unencumbered hours alone thinking about the world in
our own internal and completely personal language, contemplating what
we and our fellow man experience, thus bringing forth the unique
elements of individual human comprehension and discovery. There is a
word for the ongoing interplay and cultivation of these things, the
cultivation of this mind-soul garden — spiritual.
Predictably enough, the cartel that provides for every human need from
Cheetos to iPods and self-help videos, is willing to sell us an
intellectual and spiritual life, too. So we buy and read those
"substantive" books, most often written by people working too hard at
writing substantive books to experience much of the world's substance.
Buying and reading books, which damned few Americans do anyway, is the
mark of the "thinking classes." And a degree certifying they've read
the state-sanctioned cannon for their narrow slot in the economic
machinery certifies them as intellectuals. No room exists in the
machinery for an Eric Hoffer, Thoreau or even an Aristotle, none of
whom could get published today. Sorry Ari, no profitable demographic
segment. Gandhi, however, might find a niche with the New Age crowd,
providing he threw in a bar of Ayurvedic soap with each book sold.
Needless to say, good books are delightful and profound departure
points to new avenues for an enlightened mind. It would be hard for a
Western person to imagine an intellectual life without them. But they
are certainly not the cause of one. Of the three living persons I
admire most for their deep, graceful intellectual life and insight, two
are famous, well-paid and surely among the most well-read people
anywhere. But the third is an all-but-illiterate old Garifuna
fisherman. Our practical relationship is based mostly on my sharing a
few groceries and beers during the off tourist season when he cannot
work as a fishing guide. As a younger man, he saw death and storms at
sea, suffered daily abuse and insult under the British colonials who
once ran this country and even today spends half of each year wondering
where his next meal is coming from. Yet he manages to retain piercing
intellect and insight (often beyond words), and though he is visited
like the rest of us by the soul's miseries, he lets joy blow through
his inner self as casually as the Caribbean breeze in which he's lived
his entire life. There is much to be learned from the poor, so much in
fact that we should be their students, not they ours. I've been told
that Einstein once said that intelligence equals the ability to find
happiness. Some Einstein scholar will surely write me that Al said no
such thing. If not, then he should have. If happiness and moral
rightness were to be found within the self, then as the most
self-centered people on earth, we would be the happiest and most
enlightened. And if "American style individualism" were the hallmark of
freedom, there would be no Department of Homeland Security, no
government satellites scanning every single email we send and we would
be free to visit Cuba.
Another round of elections are coming up both here in Belize and in
America, and the serious political junkies at both ends of the
Caribbean (in other words, the suckers who believe "change can be
effected within the system) are all worked up into slobbering fits.
Belizeans of late have gotten slightly more from the system, a modest
social security program, and, at long last, free school books for the
nation's kids, written by the same incompetents who made fortunes on
royalties from the old ones in a political fixed textbook publishing
racket, similar to our own corporate one in the U.S. But despite having
a far freer and more varied press than the U.S. (in a rather strange
twist, lack of libel laws actually works for the people's interests
most of the time) Belizean national elections are the same as those in
the U.S. This is to say an elite game of political musical chairs,
except that the stakes are astronomically higher for the princes of
Gringolia. The upper-level candidates in both countries are wealthy and
visible elites at the service of invisible ones who prefer to remain
that way, thank you. The top dogs have pictures of themselves with
prime ministers and presidents on their walls. As a veteran Washington
reporter once told me, "If you are the kind of politico who likes
pictures on the office wall of yourself with shaking hands with
presidents, you ain't a player, you're just a useful pawn to a bigger
pawn." It doesn't take much to be useful and get one of those photos. I
have a framed photo of myself with Bill Clinton — yes, I was suckered
into the Clinton personality cult — and all I did was deliver a couple
of fake "foster children" to a campaign appearance so he could mug with
them for the press. I long ago took the photo off my wall and buried it
in the back of my files. But I'm probably going to hell for it, anyway.
In the end, no political personality cult or party, no "economic
system," no ism, Marxism, capitalism nor even the most compassionate
socialism is going to satisfy that inner void, that vacuum that is the
source of the phenomenal greed that enslaves Americans. The void we
keep stuffing with noise and spectacle and the gulag-made goods that
produce so much of the world's misery because we are told to do so 24
hours a day. Believe it or not, as I write this and watch footage,
Hurricane Dean's barreling our way, and frightened villagers trundle
bed clothing and food toward more affluent neighbors with concrete
houses or wait for the last bus to hurricane-proof Belmopan. George
Foreman flickers on the screen trying to sell me a smokeless electric
grill, followed by a gringo-targeted Nationwide ad for increased home
insurance. There is no geographical escape from America. But there is a
spiritual one, sometimes born of intellect, but always nourished by
compassion, which in truth does not seek to escape the world, or to own
the world, but to embrace it for what it can teach us in the brief span
we are granted that opportunity. When it comes to filling our
disastrous national void, not to mention saving our own asses from
ecological and economic disaster, we can learn more from the world's
poor than they can ever learn from the "American experience," or gain
from the "American lifestyle" or national ethos of greed.
Dog fights, scorpions and paradise
This little village in this little country is not paradise, not even
close. This is the land of the agonizing sand flea, the scorpion and
the swarming sting rays of the night tides. It is a place where no
wallet can be opened in a store without a dozen covetous eyes locking
onto its contents and where dogs fight brutally in the yards. Last
month our dog Hero killed a neighbor's dog in front of the whole
family. And amid the screaming and crying, not even the powerful-bodied
Luke could break Hero's death grip on the intruding dog's throat,
brutally demonstrating the truth of planetary flesh from Palestine, to
the Sudan, and even in America for the several millions in the unseen
ghettoes of the national machinery. This is also a place where, sooner
or later, with no small help from global warming, the village's tiny
houses will be blown off their stilts and tumble into a hurricane's
deep "surge waters," rolling over once, maybe twice, before becoming a
pile of splintered boards, while the palm frond houses of the poorer
families are atomized into grassy shreds amid the airborne cooking
pots, baby clothing and cheap Taiwanese boom boxes. It also is where
hypodermic needles turn up on the beach (hopefully illegally dumped
medical waste drifted down from Mexico), where cocaine is dirt cheap
for the minority who use it and where at least a couple of crackheads
dwell and several more drift back and forth between here and Dangriga,
35 miles up the only paved road on this side of the country.
Yet the village is still a place where matrons bake coconut birthday
cakes, kids shoot hoops by the sparse streetlight and adolescent
couples walk bashfully holding hands under swaying palms and a silver
pie pan moon. Since I started this, Dean has become a cat five 'cane.
So the whole family has packed for that mountain-bound bus that won't
be here because it is stuck in the already traffic-hammed road to
hurricane-proof Belmopan. Generously, the brawny resort guard, who
lives in a concrete house next door, has taken our family in for the
night. Like I said, it ain't paradise. Just a spot on the planet where
a man has time think and peck at a keyboard and pour bedtime orange
juice for sleepy, well-scrubbed kids just before the moon comes up.
Dean will come and go. But some things are eternal.
Note:
Hurricane Dean spared the village of Hopkins entirely, and miracle of
miracles, even the power and water were back on by noon next day. It
may be simply my writer's imagination, but I could swear there was a
knowing twinkle in the eye of the old Dugu drummer down at the
vegetable stand this morning.